Tuesday, May 20, 2014

CONQUEROR

He had conquered what all thought wasn't able to.
With all of the names, 
All of the shame. 
He got rid of all of the burden,
So he could finally stop hurting.
Only longing for a better life,
Trying to heal his problems with a knife.
A blade, 
He prayed, 
He was only afraid
Of how his future would continue 
Who would he have to look up to?
With all that he had been through, 
His mistakes he just wanted to undo.
Lots of love was given to others,
Yearning the same from his own father and mother.
Trying to impress everyone else's eyes,
Believing everyone else's lies;
He just wanted in,
Surrounded by the temptation of sin.
But he found a way,
Waking up to another day,
Finally getting to speak, what he's always wanted to say. 
He opened up,
Heart resembling a full cup.
He finally got rid
Of all the bad things he had did.
He is now happy,
Not living in agony.
His internal monster,
Had finally met its conqueror.


Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Get Me Out.

(((Please enjoy my rant...)))


If there's one thing I hate, it's this dang generation. I am so fed up with all these "fads" we are having. I am so fed up with everything we call "popular". So beyond done with how guys are condoning to the idea that it's perfectly fine to be unfaithful and how they believe they don't have to show women any respect. And not just boys, but girls... not respecting themselves, where they thinks it's cute to write songs about how much more awesome their parts are than another female. Also, male artists think it is perfectly fine to talk about how many women they get, how many alcoholic beverages they can purchase in one night, or how much drugs can be consumed? Aren't us, girls supposed to be there for one another, meanwhile there's television shows about who can be the "baddest" and beat up one another over irrevant things. Why is it that girls feel the need that the only to get a guy's attention, is by showing him ourselves, visually? There's just so much hate going on in the world, as a whole, as an ethnicity, as a country, why aren't we supporting one another as well? Why is there violence within our own people? I'm just ready for the good times to come...

Saturday, May 3, 2014

SPENT.

I am hideous. 
Horrid. 
Awful. 
Appalling. 
Even with long, extravagant hair. 
Even with a smile that glows brighter than the sun.
Even with curves that mock a valley. 
Hideous. 
But not the physical. 

I am broken. 
Even with a casual grin. 
Even with helping hands. 
Even with the praises of many. 
Broken. 
But not the physical. 

I am weak. 
Even with such strong faith. 
Even when support is given.
Weak. 
But not the physical. 

Definitely not the physical, 
but definitely the mental. 

So many errors and troubles come to pass, 
And I am always the recipient. 
So much buried pain always seems to last, 
Constant reminders, like it's something significant. 

Who is going to actually listen, when hope is way too distant? 

Who is going to comfort me, when the shaking and crying takes over? 

Yell at me if you really desire
All of this exhaustion, and 
Guess who's finally tired. 

More like spent
Needing someone who understands 
Possibly one who I can vent 

Hidden by everyone's happiness
Mine is drained 
Nothing more even remains

But for now life will go on,
That is what I'm wishing upon

No more concerns, 
Just lessons that are going to be learned. 
Pain that is going to have to be dealt with,
However not by scars across my wrist. 

I may be hideous, broken, and weak
But not the physical.